Never Die

 

 I am watching movie with my dad who is Santa Claus on his marshmallow bed. In his hug I feel I’m sleeping inside chocolate in a marshmallow. The chocolate chip that tops off the treat, that is my oldest sister. Natcha is older than me by seven years and I am the youngest kid because they have just Natcha and me. And my darling is sleeping next to me. Mom is sleeping maybe because she doesn’t like horror movies. We do this every friday night. Actually I sleep with mom and Natcha, and leave dad alone in another bed in the same room.

 

I love this moment, the moment I watch a movie with who I love with they hug and…...BOOM! BANG! BANG! BOOM! “What’s happening?” My mom wakes and says. Oh my god. I think “What’s happen?” I’m seeing dark gray from outside the room. “What is that black thing?” I asked. “A microwave,” Dad says. “Why you know that, dad?” “Because that’s my popcorn.” Oh yeah. That is my lovely popcorn. Every friday night we watch a movie and also make popcorn. I never watch movies from beginning to the end because I fall asleep. All of us always sleep on that marshmallow on Friday.

 

I wake up to dad’s snoring, and mom putting on clothing every morning and also "Coke! Coke Cola Co ...la!!" He’s my younger brother. He has curly beautiful hairs, big black eyes, and a roll tail. He’s so jealous of me when mom or dad hug me. Sometimes I sleep with mom,and he will bite my feet, take off my socks, and steal them. When I feel cold and see someplace where have full of snow, windy and enormous hailstones are falling from the sky. I know  someone has stolen my socks. That’s why I always have new socks. But he is my bestfriend when I am sad or lonely. He’s so young. Me too. Actually we’re the same age. And have so many people in my house. We live in highest Zone and the downer zone. Sure.

 

That’s my alarm in the morning. I can't wait for tonight's dinner...my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and their pets.

 All of my big family will cook food every dinner weekend. And the most of that is Sukiyaki. I love everyone. I love this feeling this moment.

 

In the future this will be my memories picture forever. I never thought if one day someone is gone. I just know now I am pretty happy. After this I will become lonely again because my cousins and my sister, they’re the same old but I’m not.

 

Now we going to use time machine and go to meet another me.  I feel everything is going to change. My aunt, uncle, cousins, grandfather and also Natcha is leaving to move to Bangkok. Why do they have to go? They don’t like the river? Are they don’t like it here? And the most important my dad going to move to south of Thailand because job. Oh my god. That’s so far. My house is so quiet. No one to cook in the morning. No dinner party. No snoring.

 

And then always of two or three years I have only mom. I cook with mom every morning and dinner but sometime we are lazy and go to dinner outside. Mom drive for sent me to school every morning and picks up me every evening. She’s a nice mom. I don’t have words to equate to her loveliness. She never thinks I have to go to school by bus. I love mom so much. And now I am glad to meet you, Naphat. Because something I forgot and you can tell me about all of that. This is my picture. That picture that I never got over. I thought I wouldn't meet mom again, she's gone. I think I will just have her forever just only she gave me eyes, ears and another thing like that from her blood. That's why I will have mom with me forever. But that isn't it because you bring me meet her I make me know that isn't only body that from her or memory or dream or read diary or look at a picture but I just met her. Thank you for our memories, Naphat. And probably none easy if who want to use time machine like this for go to travel anyplace, anywhere in your past with anyone you can’t do anything with anymore.